Music saves my soul

2011-12-29T17:45:00.001+08:00

The end of year is here. All these fleeting emotions of this year have come and gone.

Most of them were bad, some were decent.
But nothing great of being mentioned has happened.
It's just the lukewarm moments that make up my life.

As with every year, i look at the happy people around me and i just can't help feeling like this.

This new blog song pretty much describes how my heart is feeling.

Cheers, Happy New Year and peace out.

2011-09-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

A paragraph from Breaking Dawn really hit me hard.

"After eighteen years mediocrity, i was pretty used to being average. I realized now that i'd long ago given up any aspirations of shining at anything. I just did the best with i had, never quite fitting into my world."

i guess bella was some what similar to me when she was still human.. haha..

2011-09-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

Every time i give an attempt at love, god just gives me a great big kick to my butt.

2011-09-21T23:23:00.003+08:00

This girl in this video reminds me of her so much.. that it hurts somehow.
but awesome song anyhow.

My motivation to blog has plummeted as mixpod is being anal, but i swear i'll try to keep this blog alive.

2011-09-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

haven't blogged in a while.
this is attributed to the busy busy times i spent during army.
sigh, they are finding every single way to make NSF's there miserable.

i just can't wait to ORD :/

its also been awhile i have met any of my friends.
i miss them terribly.

this song which also is going to be my next blog song has the nicest lyrics i have ever seen before, once i reformat my desktop that is.

2011-08-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

on saturday during samson's so-called chalet at occ.
i met a girl who looked the most korean i have ever seen in my life.. interesting

2011-08-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

ahh crap, i misplaced my memory card so i can't upload some pictures that i took of marina bay :(

oh boy busy busy july, u have been mercilessly cruel to me.
all the work piled up, all the overtime spent. heck i even worked till 12 45 into the night once, all on the whim of one big shot (i hate him).

but still the experience ain't so bad, after all i'm sure im like the 1 of the 3 NSF in the whole entire island of singapore that is seeing what i see for my batch anyway.

the perks aren't too bad either, but still, amidst the work and beautiful scenery sometimes i wish one of my wishes will come true.

2011-08-04T01:25:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!! I have the urge to exercise recently.
Its been so long since I had this sensation.

Oh man.. July had me knee deep with work and shit.
So busy that I couldn't blog, ill update it when the weekend comes :)

2011-07-30T14:51:00.001+08:00

What's the point of friends when they are never there when you need them most?

2011-07-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

It seems our paths are going to cross again soon.
It's not like im avoiding you on purpose but the situation calls for awkwardness,
oh well the problem was not resolved to begin with.

2011-07-18T08:52:00.000+08:00

watching a good romance show really brought me happy and sad memories.
who thought i would still cry about you.. haha..

even if i would never appear the same in your eyes again.

teared hearing this :')

2011-07-18T06:27:00.003+08:00

"Every person's life is like a jigsaw puzzle that is one piece away from completion, we are always looking for the person that holds the missing piece to make our lives complete."

i heard it on a show today and it really touched my heart.

2011-07-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

my guitar class clique was asking help about this song to it.
happy to have heard this song.
it makes me believe in love, even if it is hard.

2011-07-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

i need some kind of motivation :(

2011-07-10T17:42:00.002+08:00

more pictures of what i took

Frigging over priced please?

2011-07-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

i bought two dumbbells from an aiba sale yesterday.
two for 123$, should be quite cheap. Gonna train my biceps muahaha.

they are playing pumped up kicks on the radio now, which is super awesome!

im also going to learn 21 guns by greenday next week! can't wait to learn the solo

2011-07-08T21:08:00.001+08:00

I'm disappointed in humanity.
If you can't trust the close to you.
Who can you trust?

2011-07-08T02:06:00.001+08:00

The friday is here!
Recently some good animes have been released and they are pretty awesome.
It kind of revolves around the reason and worth of living which kinds of bring a
happy yet melancholic feeling...

On a side note.. I feel so much bottled up angst and frustration.
I really want to find some really sad shows and bawl my eyes out.
It really feels like its been years since I did that, maybe doing so may make
Me feel better.

2011-07-08T02:00:00.001+08:00

My friend let me drive his auto car today.
Driving feels so liberating!
I really want to own a car soon.

2011-07-07T00:58:00.001+08:00

the feeling of being loved is wonderful.
i wish it happens to me.

2011-07-05T11:35:00.001+08:00

On a cold rainy day like this,
Makes me miss you even more.
I miss your smiling face.

2011-07-03T21:09:00.001+08:00

what a really expensive weekend! two 21st birthdays together O_O
but it was fun, shopping and catching up with friends

2011-07-01T10:27:00.002+08:00

We were friends meant to say goodbye

2011-06-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

i feel so frustrated.
the feeling of helplessness is really annoying.
argh!

2011-06-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

watched romance town all night and slept at 5:30am :P
had to wake up at 6:30pm for a very busy all day visit.
argh, managed to survive till 4. i did not know how to spend the remaining 2 hours of free time but shopping, managed to buy some uniqlo skinnies (yes they are awesome).

when the night event finally came, i saw yam ah mee! OMG, lol wanted to take some pics, but he slipped into the animosity of his private room :(

2011-06-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

i can't seem to get my new blog song to play.
i'm in love with it.. could it be something wrong with mixpod?

2011-06-28T14:30:00.002+08:00

I wish I had more time to exercise.
I don't want things to be like they were in the past

2011-06-22T13:07:00.001+08:00

There's still slightly less than 3 hours left before my medical appointment.
And I'm already in orchard...
Ill guess ill take a train back home to catch a wink of sleep or two.

2011-06-21T10:31:00.000+08:00

Finally been able to catch up on my reading.
i finished a book that i had meant to finish when i bought it more than a year ago,
at a warehouse sale when i was still working near expo.

its a book about a merchant during the ages of the spanish inquisition, and sad to say that even though the action and romance wasn't quite up there.
the author really made me feel the main character's love and affection for his dreadful year in lisbon and the affair that he had with the much older maria beatriz.

Adam Runaway, a bittersweet read.

2011-06-15T19:17:00.001+08:00

can't get any sleep lately.
been sleeping at 5 am everyday and getting up at 6 for work.
:(

2011-06-13T11:29:00.001+08:00

its hard to find a true friend at this point of life.

2011-06-07T19:34:00.004+08:00

some images i took awhile back

after the flash floods..

2011-06-07T12:19:00.001+08:00

This has been a bad week for me.
Work was horrible.
Nothing seems to be working,
I just want to sleep in all day and rest this bad feeling away.

2011-06-05T14:36:00.001+08:00

I'm the epitome of what is murphy's law.

2011-05-28T16:34:00.001+08:00

Remember fabs, will power!

2011-05-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

finally got my hands on an FFX game.
my friend in camp lent it to me.
let the awesomeness begin!

2011-05-27T01:52:00.002+08:00

feel like my life is finally going back on track again.

2011-05-25T06:11:00.001+08:00

I had a dream about her again

2011-05-24T08:59:00.001+08:00

I don't know why I feel so down lately.
I can't seem to achieve any of my goals that I have set for.

Army seems to suck my happiness and my life away.
Feeling like a lifeless zombie, not having the time to do anything anymore.

2011-05-22T04:57:00.002+08:00

2011-05-18T08:07:00.001+08:00

Watching where I left off with The OC, god those couples look so cute together

2011-05-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

it was the first day of my electric guitar class.
my teacher was the same guy that subbed my first acoustic guitar lesson.
hes more towards the theory which is cool, im figuring that i can finally learn all the tabs and etc now.
my class was okay.. but i noticed theres always some smart aleck in the class which always answers the teachers questions even when its not directed at him. nerd much?

there was also a girl that looks like an asian pheobe from friends, so awesome haha.
had to lunge the guitar around when i went to yi qin's top shop event on sat at knightbridge,
hey another huge ass store with 3 storeys haha.
nonetheless the event was pretty darn cool!
i got to see rozz from 987 in person, shes really pretty
didn't bring my camera though so there aren't pictures.
the food was awesome and there was free beer!!!
they even had some ipads set up there for the voting.. and they were... AWESOME!
i want an ipad :/

we went to a horrible bar after that to have some more beer and chicken wings, the pinoy waiter was horrible and rude. the san miguel beer tasted like water.. ughh..
end of the day it was pretty fun but i ended up with abrasions on my should from carrying my heavy ass guitar all day. (i feel your pain now les paul users)

2011-05-09T21:56:00.002+08:00

I have decided to have a much needed re-organization of my life.
Which is my friends and my goals.
Why bother keeping people that are continually hurting or disappointing you.
Ahhh, the road will be long and perilous. But with this I can finally see who is true to me and who is not.

2011-05-04T09:24:00.001+08:00

This morning was terrible. I had to meet my colleagues at orchard parade hotel,
I have never heard of such a hotel, so I had to google it.

Just when I thought everything was going smoothly, I found out I have been walking in the wrong direction for 15 minutes. I had already walked deep into the condos past goodwood park hotel.
When I thought it was fishy when I still could not find the place, I asked a security guard for directions.
Turned out that the hotel was a 30 minute walk from here and I have 5 minutes left to reach there.
Google map had betrayed me!

I sucked it in and raan all the way there.. WWhen I reached the place I was all sweaty...
Sorry orchard road u must have seen a mad man today.

2011-05-03T22:27:00.001+08:00

I'm. Really contemplating to remove you from my life.
All I get is anguish and disappointment from You.

2011-05-03T22:05:00.001+08:00

I swear to god. I'll never do you favours again.

2011-05-03T06:47:00.001+08:00

I have made up my mind!
I want to be fit!

2011-04-29T19:20:00.001+08:00

Its not like I want to be emo.
But all these kind of things keep happening to me,
I find my life full of ridicule and unfortunate events.

My mp3 got damaged when I dropped it earlier today..
Will there be any redempting thing that will make me look forward in life.

I just want to be happy.

2011-04-25T12:33:00.001+08:00

I don't see the point of this anymore.
I can't seem to get anything right.

2011-04-15T08:16:00.001+08:00

All I wanted is someone I can rely on.
To talk to when I'm bored, angry, sad or happy.
Someone who really cares for me.
Someone to love..

2011-04-07T20:46:00.001+08:00

I feel pissed off that you think you know me very well.
Guess what you don't even know urself well so what makes you think you know me.

I don't even know what I should do anymore, is it a good thing that I know you or a bad thing.

2011-04-04T15:56:00.001+08:00

with all these events happening around this world.
i feel like i don't have enough time to do anything at all.
travel the world.
scuba diving.
driving around the country side.
going to paris again.
trying the hot springs.
finding the right person.

the world really feels like its coming to an end.
and when that day really comes, would i have done enough to satisfy myself?

2011-04-04T13:01:00.001+08:00

I just have this magical ability to screw everything up with people

2011-03-30T19:37:00.001+08:00

Even I never cross your mind,
I will be alright.
Ill be right here waiting.

2011-03-29T16:35:00.001+08:00

I Had an awesome dream about me having my own car and driving around the world.
Haha must be going crazy

i h

2011-03-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

have been doing on job training for the past week, one more excruciating week to go.
seeing everyone moving on without me really woke up, i really don't want to be left behind.

buck up buck up!

2011-03-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

i feel so sad recently, due to various incidents.
but my heart strings really got tugged when i heard "The Script - If you ever come back" and "Chris Medina - What are words"

when i watched this video, the tears starting falling.

2011-03-14T16:39:00.001+08:00

Losing faith in humanity

2011-03-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

i think about the future and i feel lost.
i have nothing to look forward to.

2011-03-11T15:58:00.001+08:00

carol recommended this movie :

2 strangers

where love finds itself overseas.
hilarious and romantic, this made me wanna go korea too ! ahhh!

2011-03-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

why didn't my mom send me for piano lessons as a child?
how my life would have changed if that happened..

i know thinking of what ifs ain't productive, i shall take it as a dream that never happened.

2011-03-08T16:02:00.001+08:00

My heart aches as I think of u so.
Its not like I don't want u to know how I feel,
But what happens next.

2011-03-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

looking back the pictures of my facebook profile really gave me nostagia.
even though it wasn't exactly the best, man those were the bitter sweet days.

2011-03-05T12:28:00.001+08:00

How long does one take to walk a ten minute journey?

2011-03-05T11:11:00.002+08:00

I'm suprised I got so riled up, guess I didn't know the extent of my feelings

2011-03-05T05:32:00.001+08:00

AGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Its so frustrating!!

2011-03-05T02:41:00.001+08:00

Why does it always it end like this

2011-03-03T13:07:00.001+08:00

She's insanely talented.
Damn, I find I'm falling for her.

2011-03-03T13:04:00.001+08:00

This week has been hectic and crazy,
I had to work till midnite on monday and tuesday with an imminent flu n fever,
Working till 9 everyday is taking its toll on me.
I feel like collasping soon!

ALl my jogging I did over the weekend laid waste as my weight bounce back.. however I shall be optimistic.

Even as my last few bits of strength is being sapped, I will work hard to get what I want.

2011-02-11T20:54:00.001+08:00

It has reached that dreaded day of the year again.
I wonder when will turn from a nightmare to something else.

2011-02-06T12:44:00.001+08:00

i wonder why my tolerance for whisky is dropping :((

2011-01-29T20:26:00.002+08:00

i cried and i will cry again.

2011-01-25T00:50:00.001+08:00

come on fabs.
u gotta change!!!

today has been horrifyingly terrible for me.
i hope the bad luck doesnt spread out tomorrow.

2011-01-24T07:19:00.001+08:00

Today started up really fucked up.
I arranged some bus transport to my camp at gombak.
The boss arranged for me to wait downstairs at my house LRT at 6:40.
At 6:30 I was already there, the bus no. Was 8850 and it just sped me when I already waved at him.
Then I called back to the boss to inform me that he left me behind.

Then he gave me the number of the driver, turned out to be some china guy.
He didn't even know any bloody landmarks or the rough area of sengkang.
He told me to go nan chiau which I can't remember where but I know it was fucking far.
So I asked him if he know roughly where is 122 or northspring primary and wow he didn't know.
So we negotiated to meet at the road before KPE.

I friggin walked there and gave him a call and he told me "I where got go past there" in chinese.
Attempted to ask if he knew the white temple near my house (its friggin famous and was in the news)
And as expected he didn't know.

I told him to forget it and just cut the line.
Seriously its okay if u can't bloody speak english. At least know the area or the landmarks la u fuck.

2011-01-24T01:57:00.001+08:00

congratulations and jubilations to mister edwin tan wen loong :D
i hate to say it, but i told u so! LOL

2011-01-24T01:56:00.002+08:00

ahh this week will be busy.
i'm nervous as i'm afraid i will screw up.
oh well! nothing to it but to do it!

changed my blog song.
so funny the name is "the sore feet song" LOL

2011-01-23T14:03:00.002+08:00

i dreamt i had hair again and i was with you..

2011-01-19T06:41:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why I cling on to this.

2011-01-18T07:00:00.001+08:00

You bring out the darkness in me.

2011-01-13T19:44:00.001+08:00

Somedays I feel like the world doesn't care.
It's like when I feel totally excluded from everything.
I have a rough idea where such a dark feeling of mine came from,
But this seriously sucks.

2011-01-12T02:35:00.002+08:00

my internet and com has been going haywire lately.
i want to reformat my com!
need to get my hands on the windows 7 OS

2011-01-09T11:23:00.000+08:00

been sleeping late lately,
somehow.. even though i'm so tired, i cant get to sleep.
and when i use the com or have a smoke,
i won't feel like sleeping anymore.
ugh. i wish this could stop.. i need to get to sleep or i'll be in trouble later.

2011-01-08T23:38:00.001+08:00

Finally POC loh!
My stay in days are over and time for my 8-5 vocation.
Its good to sleep on my own bed again.
A well deserved break is in due.

Lately, I have been lethargic due to the lack of sleep.
As always life's afflictions are still troubling me.
I still feel a bit down..
I wonder if I can ever overcome this.

Hello 2011!

2010-12-31T15:22:00.002+08:00

It's finally the end of 2010.
This year has been an emotional roller coaster for me.
Emotions that i have never thought i would have experienced,
happiness, sadness and anger will abundant then.

Even though, most of it was more painful memories or sometimes dull moments,
I'm glad to have experienced it.
After all these moments are part of my wish to mature more in life.

I pray that next year will be a more fruitful year and hopefully some or one of my long wishes come true.

Alright now enough with that heavy stuff,
my new year resolutions are:

Further my guitar skills
Learning how to ride a bike
Going on a vacation
Improve my japanese
and last but not least, losing more weight.

Happy new year everyone.

2010-12-26T13:56:00.000+08:00

alright i promised myself to blog weekly.

lately i have been blogging on my stupid notebook when i was doodling in camp.
nothing much except lectures lectures and more lectures, finally they are over.

this year's christmas ended pretty badly, it was boring yet it ate a lot of money!
i spent the first 10 minutes of xmas, hiking up dempsey hill with edwin and his almighty iphone map.
he insisted he wasn't lost and we loitered there for 20-30mins before we could find the bar.

The bar Hacienda, was a tiny pub with overpriced drinks.
16$ for a cup of heineken, WTH.
I then spent whats left of my remaining days slacking.
nothing much to do.

I also just received my beret, it looks pretty cool.
It just brought me to reality that in 2 weeks time that im going to finish BMT!!!
can't wait for my block leave.

2010-12-24T21:11:00.001+08:00

I thought I'll be used to being lonely by now.
I guess I was wrong.

2010-12-06T14:38:00.001+08:00

its not like i wanted to build a wall around me.
before i even noticed it was already there.
life has been too quiet for me,
i look at the people around me with slight feelings of envy.
people that have what i lack and what i yearn for.
everyday i yearn for someone to come into my life,
just to brighten my world even if its just a little..

2010-12-06T00:44:00.000+08:00

havent been updating due to the lack of time i have lately.
lately booking out = going out pretty much.
transferring to sembawang camp really made me appreciate my time i spent in tekong.
the facilities were soooo much newer and the sergeants there really cared a lot more than what the current guy in my camp does (darn the ORD mood).

i got a weird vocation which may result in me not getting the rank i desired, i hoppe i get a 8-5 vocation for the rest of my two years in army.
who knows maybe i might enjoy my 5 weeks in Sembawang STC, but hopes are dim.
armee is a waste of time and i want my civilian life back :)

Welcome to Holiday Resort Tekong!!!

2010-11-10T09:31:00.001+08:00

Alright.
This is the last post before i'm headed for tekong.
The day is finally here, and reality finally sinks in.
I'm going to miss everyone and the times we spent together,
I'm glad that the last few days i get to go out everyday.
I hope the two weeks will pass quickly :|
Being bald was actually kind of fun and i don't get edwin's reaction when he shaved back then Haha.

I hope i can keep in contact with you guys in camp,
so until then people. (I can't wait for 2012 already)

2010-11-10T01:23:00.001+08:00

i think i might be falling for you

2010-11-07T02:46:00.000+08:00

Today was tiring but fun.
but tomorrow will be hell lot worse,
its Weiting's birthday tomorrow so besides the celebration i'd keep my promise and shave bald.

going to miss my long bangs :'(
also, i have to get back my phone at sembawang. then i still need to charge it.
damn its going to be a lonnnnnnnnnnnggggggg day!

2010-11-06T15:36:00.002+08:00

just ordered my ipod nano product (RED) for my army use.
right now im friggin' broke but it just looks so awesome and i can't wait.
but i forgot the delivery is within 1-3 working days.. so i might not be able to bring in to my first two weeks :(

i haven't slept a wink today and i don't plan to!
i needa reset my body clock,
hopefully i can resist keeling over and last till midnight.
heading over to meet liying now :)

2010-11-05T22:55:00.001+08:00

i really need to step away from the bread!!!

2010-11-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

2010-11-02T16:07:00.003+08:00

i am nothing without you.. but i don't know who you are.

2010-11-02T15:26:00.001+08:00

finally found the link to my blog song.
french singers are so awesome!

2010-10-29T20:44:00.002+08:00

and i started tearing.

2010-10-28T04:50:00.000+08:00

tried sleeping early today.
but as you can see it didn't work well.

everybody wants to be loved.
it is a blessing to be loved.
i wonder when will it ever be my turn?

2010-10-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

okay. the blackberry wasnt what i expected from my uncle.
but he said i was going to get a new model when he gets it ready.. (hmmm)
it was a fun night on xinting's 21st.
we spent what seemed like eons in the korean restaurant called hongool cuisine and went drinking next! fun fun fun :D

10 more days b4 i turn in my IC to the nation!

2010-10-19T23:27:00.000+08:00

i have been tolerating this for quite awhile and i cant take this anymore.
i really hate people who competitive yet sore losers.
its just a fucking game and you have to complain and nag every time.
its been fine all this while cause the other people were tolerant.
why the hell do u think i am so black faced when i play?
its because of your whining!

if you truly think i am like that because of money,
i wouldn't even pay the fucking cab fare back to you house for you. (you cant even remember this)
how many times i accompanied you, just so you can do your stuff.
all your trips to your polyclinic and stuff.
yet cause of this you are rearing your ugly head because of this then im truly disappointed.